start baCk work at Mayim ytd after my One month break. was still lazy to get to work but no choice! i need to earn back the money i spent. work was still fine. NEw items on menu, i'm waiting for pple to go eat wif me. ANyonE interested?? Sports and wellness results. VOlleyball was not offered to my batch of pple! Aarrggghhh. So sad lor. So i chose touch rugby wif cheryl instead. turn out to be that touch rugby is a popular choice wor. Lucky i'm fast enough to secure a seat for myself and for cheryl. hahaha. so kiasu lor. like auntie rushing for some Sales.

tis hari raya season kept bringing my thoughts back to my past. yesh. Sheet was right. i'm still living in the miserable past of mine. i haf not gotten over f afterall. i did try my best, but its realli hard to do so. On the outside, i can be as happie, as strong, as whatever i want myself to be.. Onli in front of what others see. what others dun see, is what i dun talk about. Esp tis festival, it jus make me realised tt i've been missiing him. missiing his mama. missiing the good old time. Like always, i tried to pack my schedule tight, make myself busy, occupied myself my mind. But as my pace slows down.. i observe more of my surrounding. Anything i see can lead my mind to him. Things had alreadi ended off in the terrible-est way. there's no way either of us is willing to make the first move. i haf my reasons, he has his own stand. i dun dare to hope for much. If things haf to remain tis way.. well, i'll haf to accept my fate. as much as i hate to let him go, i hate myself for loving him. it brought me so much pain and misery yet the sweetest moments and memories. yesh, I MISS YOU.

Time will heals wound. How long will it takes to heal mine?

to be updated :)