Christmas is arriving, like in about fifteen minutes time. But i dun feel any christmassy feeling at all. Partly is bcos i chose to celebrate Xmas alone tis year. BA_Comm peeps are spending it over at clarence's house. Swens peeps are going to town. I'm so tired after the work today which i'm too lazy to travel down to tpy or to squeeze through the human congestion on orchard rd. tt explains why i'm home.

Perhaps the loneliness leave me to reflect on what i've done throughout the year'o5...

after my O'ls last Xmas. i continued working wif Swens wm. That was when i realli got the chance to new things and self-train myself as a better service personnel. That was when i got to knw my dearest Mummy feron, who was initially the restaurant manager of swens wm. but she was transferred to j8 soon after her training period is over.

March. was when i fell into the hole again. i thought we could give each other another chance. a chance for us to treasure one another.. once again, i got closer to his family, his mother especially.

April. i was the organiser for Swens wm Chalet. Many things for me to get ready, to buy, to plan, to discuss, to propose etc. and i would like to once again thanks weiting, who lend a helping hand to jenn. =] Chalet was a success until when a handphone was stolen in our rooms. What saddens me most was tt i was one of the suspect to had taken the phone. This created a big misunderstanding between me n e manager involved.

May. I HAD MY CHICKEN POX. well... blame it on irsyad. he was having chic pox during wm chalet. and it was passed on to Me n Luqman. lol. 2 staffs down wif chic pox! i took my leave frm Swens. i missed Stephie's birthday celebration. I missed the BA yr1 orientation. Soon after i recover...

June. School started for me in Ngee ann, Sch of BA.. new environment. As i missed the orientation, i really felt kinda left out and fear tt i cant mingle well wif my class Tb26 as they would haf alreadi knw each other. and my first impression given to the not-yet-formed potato wasn't veri good eh? Tis month was also when thunderstorm strike in our relationship. i was totally down. Betrayed by e guy i love, n betrayed by the lady i trust. i almost went into a depression... well. ALMOST. This is also the month when i decided leave Swens.. it was time for me to go. i cant continue working under the prejudiced manangement. i went over to work next door, MAyim chinese cuisine.

July. i got to know cheryl jane evern eve better, forming a clique of our own. POTATOES. experience through a malay wedding ceremony as i attended falah's sis wedding frm preparation till the end.

August. MY birthday. celebration was at Downtown EAst Costas sands. it was one of the biggest party i'll ever had. Where my sec sch classmate, swens peeps and my new np frens were invited to come. however, i realised i don't realli favour the idea for a big celebration. cos i cant possibly attend to everyone jus within the few hours.

Sept. having final papers, Sem1 coming to an end... my r/s was also heading down the drain. i must haf been blinded by love. AGAIN. the something happened to me jus like a year ago. the same guy pulling the same stunts again. i was left alone in the world of silence. it was heart wrecking. But i was alreadi immuned n i told myself i haf to be strong. nothing would be able to bring me down. i told myself i haf to HATE him. But can i realli bring myself to?

Oct. Serve thailand 2005. My trip to Thailand-Buriram. it was indeed a memorable and meaningful trip to me. it taught me values of life which had been carved deeply in. i had learnt alot frm the pple over there, frm each other and also frm our lecturers, Mr BenTan and Mrs JennyHong. friendship are beyond the boundaries. we had made friends for life in Buriram. And also... zhu8jies, who realli brightens up my trip. i miss and i love Buriram.

Nov. Sem2 started, projs started rolling in. i joined the interest grp, BA_Comm. and get to know alot of interesting pple like my DA ge and co. Diploma in tourism n resort management (TRM) was introduced to us as an option to change for year2. Celebrated ying's n siva's birthday together. which make it a mini garthering for Css5/1 & Angels' attitude.

Dec. Purple Ribbon proj was launched to help raise funds for BUriram needy children. went SILRA home to celebrate Xmas wif the old folks. celebrated my sis birthday at Mayim and my brother is treating using his first pay....

and it's alreadi Christmass le.

i realised, not much time was spent wif my family. My life was mostly circled round my friends, my school, my work. which is not a very good thing. therefore i would like to wish my family a Merry Christmas~ i promised to spend more time together.

to be updated :)