I'm supposed to continue with my LAM individual report. its like still half way done in terms of number of words. In terms of content, i cant seem to find relevant articles/statistics in relation to Singapore Botanic Garden. arggghh.

and i'm feeling rather pek chek over myself.

partly is bcos i cant find what i need for the report. partly is bcos i'm still thinking bout the tmgt report. haiis. like what ame said to me.. 'its alr long gone, also handed up alr, nothing can be done so just relax.' i also wanna relax. i also want to forget about it. BUT it is easier said than done to me. Everytime when we're assign a proj to do, i normally dont tend to take the lead in the first place. Well, not tt i hate to lead... but i would prefer somebody else to lead me too. so that we could all learn from each other and stuffs lidat? (do i sound like i'm complaining?) So most of the time i'll end up be the one to do the organizing, the proper delegation of works, compiling blah blah blah. and i'll be kinda particular in whether have each of every member gave their best in doiing their fair share of work. Reason being.. i knw that peer evaluation wont work because in a class of friends friends, none would appraise anyone down. So i thought that was what i can do to make everyone will better and happy doing their part of the proj. i also know that i do haf a set of higher expectations... people who had worked with me before should also realise that i always work with a clear direction for everyone to follow. and i dun ask for everyone to be like me. As long as you did what you was supposed to do, i'm alright with that alr. When you are a team, you are a team... whatever benefit that comes along, you share the joy together. But if shit happens, you clean it together as well.. Stand in every of the team member's shoe, look at how the members would be affected.

tmgt was done. handed in a somehow incomplete report. To me, if there's missing item, it means incomplete already. i struggled at that point in time. Should i hand in the report just lidat, or should i wait for a full report to submit in. I tired my best to do what i could... but it did not make any difference at all. End of the day, i handed up the incomplete report. =/ i wanted all of us to be proud of what we had done... but i guess that's the best that i can do.

its nobody's fault out there.
it's just me..

i'm just not satisfied.

to be updated :)