i set my alarm to wake up at six this morning.

i did. but i went back to sleeep. i felt so weak, kind of feverish and sick, and i just couldn't get out if my bed. All i want to to sleep and do nothing.

My mama came into my room to wake me up at ard 8am. she asked me why if i'm giving up on mu superstar dream. i told her, my throat hurts and i cant sing. And she walked out. Leaving me back to sleep again.

I woke up by myself at ard 12noon. I picked up my phone, there were so many many 'jiayou' messages. i read through them one by one. The more i read on, the more guilty i felt. There are so many of you out there, supporting me, cheering me on... and yet, i'm gonna disappoint all of you by not going for the auditions. seriously, i felt so ashame of myself. i dont wish to hide the fact from anyone. So i replied.. 'Jenn is sick, cannot go for audition. So Sorry =(. And the replies i got from you guys made me felt even worse. you guys are just so sweet. i felt so bad that i laid on my bed and crycrycry. when i felt better and wanted to wash up, My mama stopped me in the living room and scolded me. or rather talked some sense into me.

That's when i know. no matter how late it was at that point in time, i need to go down. i cannot let anybody down. By not trying at all, i've alr let myself down. and everyone of you.

and i did. i went down to tpy hdb hub. Special thanks to eric. really really millions of thanks. i called you to accompany me own, and you agreed straight away. and also to marv, who say he can accompany me too, since he was at tpy. (but he didn't..) hahaha. Because i was asked to come back the next day at 2pm for my auditions. i got my queue number - 4094.

Met up with the few other pple in town to have dinner.
bumped into yien and gang again too.

i cannot guarantee that i'll get it. But i will, for sure, put in my veri best tml.
Thank you people.

thanks to my very-concern-about-jenn TEAM 1 peeps. i'm much better now.
thanks to jessie and yc for your honey water.
thanks to eric, once again. (refer to above)
thanks to marv, for your encouragement and dinner.
thanks to yc, mh, alex and everybody elses'c care and concern.
thanks to all those pple who sent me the jiayou sms-es.

and lastly,
thanks MAMA, for scolding me and making me realise how important i nid to go down for the auditions today.

jenn jiayou.

to be updated :)