was at bugis area with meiho and yifang earlier today.

and i saw somebody who i hadn't met for quite a long time. hmm, a year plus i supposed? but i didn't went up and say a 'Hi'. neither did i want to catch her attention. so i went past her, acting like i'm walking past a group of strangers.

she was with a group of guys, one of them, i supposed is her boyfriend. not too sure bout that since she has got such a pretty face that every guy would love; she changes boyfriend - fast. So there they were, standing arnd the smoking area. The guys were smoking, i spotted right away. However, something just ask me to turn back and check if she's smoking too. i walked a certain distance away, before i turn back... and saw that cigarette she's holding in her hand. To make sure that cig really really belongs to her, i waited to see her take a puff before i walk off.

my heart kinda sunk. the feeling of disappointment overwhelmed me.
some of you guys must be thinking, Smoking only what, what's the big deal. right?

Well. she's of the same age as me. somehow or another, relatives will always compare us. But we were somehow, close. i do envy her smartness and her beauty, till the day i recieved the news. i no longer look up to her the way i did.

the pregnancy. her girl, now a year old plus. her life. her mama. her sis.
everyone was affected.

now, a mother herself, is still not grown up enough to think like an adult. a responsible adult. i've heard so much stories of whats happening that i just felt so upset for her little girl. baby's innocent and young, baby needs to be loved. not having a father by baby side, shouldn't the mother pick up both the roles? Or if she could just be a good mother, i guess that will be sufficient. At the same time, she can lighten her own mama's workload.

have she thought through it?

like what i told yf. After seeing the another her again, she has been on my mind. somehow, distracting me! still have not get over that disappointment feeeel. =/

please bless her, her family and baby.

to be updated :)